Tori Laid Bare.

Me.. Right Now.. Present Tense.

I like the smell of rain on a hot day and the sound of rain when I’m safe indoors.

If it comes in pink (or white) I’ll always go for that option.

I don’t like butter or cream or milk… though I can handle a small smear of butter on toast and skimmed milk in cereal – but that’s kinda it. The cream thing doesn’t extend to ice cream however – that, I love.

I have an uncontrollable crush on Zac Efron. But joining the list recently have been Channing Tatum (particularly in Dear John) and Paul Walker.

I fall fast and kinda easy but there are parts of me I take an eternity to show.

I am fiercely loyal to my friends and family and their hurt or pain frustrates me more than my own. I have cried tears for a boy friend who is like a brother to me, when he couldn’t bring himself to.

I love corn muffins from New York Delis. It’s a good job I don’t live there anymore.

Speaking of junk food, I miss the McDonalds Chicken Premiere burger and I know Athina Andrelos does too.

I will never get over Tony, the CHEF in Hollyoaks pronouncing focaccia as fok-a-chee-ah and thinking that that was fine.

I can SOB at the television, from when the wrong Dorothy leaves ‘Over the Rainbow’ to footage of the candlelit procession following Harvey Milk’s assassination. If it touches me or catches me off guard – I’m a gonner. I cry hard and I genuinely care.

Films or TV programmes can stay with me for days afterwards (one film that did this really unexpectedly was ‘Alpha Dog’ – I found that so disturbing).

My Mum really is (one of) my best friend(s) and I hate when people just say that willy nilly – anyone who knows us – will know how true it is of us two and how lucky I am to have her as my mother. She is a phenomenal lady.

I believe that there is truth in your starsign affecting how you behave as a person.

When it comes to sleeping I have to be either by the wall or furthest away from the front door. Same with a coach or plane or train – I have to sit by the window. I also like to sit in the middle at the cinema or theatre if I can. When a friend teased me on it I fired back ‘I didn’t have two parents – I missed out’ – probably a load of bollocks but it’s a good one for shutting someone up! They’ll call you a dickhead and then let you have your way. I’m good at that :)

I don’t believe you can hate someone unless you’ve loved them at least a little, at some point in your life. Because otherwise you just don’t care. (the exception however is if that person killed someone you love or something ridiculous like that). But for instance when people harp on about HATING their exes and being TOTALLY over them. Bullshit. You only hate when you’re irked by the fact that a part of you still cares. The day you really don’t care, is the day you’re over it.

I don’t think that all babies are cute…. Sorry. Some are just ugly.

It really annoys me that so many people overlook Cheryl Cole’s lame arse singing ability just because she’s pretty. Sure, I have her album – I fancy her as much as the rest of us – but I’m not going to lie and say she’s a great singer and deserves to be judging people on the X Factor when she isn’t and she doesn’t. I also refuse to be brainwashed by Simon Cowell’s subliminal messaging and start referring to her smoke and mirrors performances as ‘world class’, ‘sensational’ or ‘phenomenal’ – you go see Beyonce live and then you get back to me.

I love Beyonce. That’s talent. She glows. Her talent as a performer is as incredible as her singing ability. She’s flawless, she pushes boundaries, strives to outdo herself and succeeds every time…. And above all that she reamins graceful, humble and keeps her personal life out of the limelight. TRUE star. There’s no-one like her and I am proud that she is one of the icons of our generation. (I also really respect GaGa and Kylie for the way they carry themselves and because I believe they’re genuinely passionate about music and don’t rely on their celebrity to sell records).

I am lucky to have friends who inspire me every day.

I don’t believe in the death penalty. Eye for an eye and all that. There’ve been mistakes. However, I do believe that life should mean life and that their conditions should be rotten!

I don’t understand prejudice. I don’t understand in particular how a minority group who have suffered prejudice can pick on another. Eg. A black man hating a homosexual man – sorry? I also hate how prejudice slips into every day life, like people thinking it’s ok to say ‘paki shop’ – no.. no it isn’t. It drives me NUTS when people I love say it.

Shayne Ward is a guilty secret of mine and I did purchase his album for 26p from Amazon - BARGAIN! However, he probably wouldn't be that chuffed about that. It makes me so happy though cos it's pure cheesy pop - great hooks and all about generic love and stuff - totally easy to relate to. He makes me smile :)

I've learnt to expect nothing... and then you can't lose...

Though it's not always that easy.

i'm not the easiest person to read or to understand but i'm one of the most genuine you'll meet. I mean everything i say. if i don't think it i won't say it. I don't say things for affect or cos i think it's the right thing to say. I'll never hurt someones feelings but at the same time i won't lie to you.
ie. 'is this orange and lime green kaftan.. these hot pink tights and yellow shows alright together'........... 'ummm babe.... why don't u try this dress on. It'd look wicked on you' would be my answer. No meaness.. but i am NOT letting u go out like that.

I LOVE Victoria's Secret.. and not just because we share a name... I love that they ALSO have a range called PINK. Could it be anymore perfect? However, I HATE that it's coming to the UK. It'll get rinsed by chavs now.

Justin Timberlake was always my dream man. I don't even really fancy him anymore but just for the principle.. I def. would.

I love britney and I wish she was ok.

I love girls aloud and I am not ashamed. But I think it's time Cheryl stopped hanging off Simon, I think Nadine needs to get back from L.A.... and stop making the others pretend their happy being the 'other three' - sorry... a presenter, an actor and a fashionista............ right?! Also - I could do with them all eating a burger or two. Thanks.

I don't think much of Victoria Beckham but I def fancy her husband, more circa 2002 however - the Vodafone advert faze. Yum.

I am a sucker for blue eyes.

I love Ibiza more than words can describe.

However, my last holiday there wasn't the best - so I am looking forward to putting that right. 

I always tend to drink Vodka, Diet Coke but I think I prefer it with lemonade and lime.

I love nights in as much as nights out but I don't know if anyone believes that?

I want a nice house, a partner who i love whole heartedly who loves me equally.. who I still fancy years later anddddddd who makes me laugh... and lots of kids... I want stairs in my house and a garden.. cos i've spent most of my life in a flat... I want a busy house with my kids friends round all the time.. and i want to provide for them all the things they want. I want that more than anything.

I can't ride a bike. *blushes*

All the good ones are gay.

I hate the ignorance surrounding aids. Having lost people to the illness and having spent time with them throughout the illness it's something I feel I can comment on.... very few people can say that but many have an opinion. Often a really stupid one.

I wish people respected each other more.

Without music I think i'd pretty much hate life. Behind a mic... i'm home. It's so odd to me that people who don't do it will never fully understand it but that's why it's so nice to have friends who perform. I also really respect people who don't do it......... but get it. I like that in anybody, regarding anything. An open mind. An imagination and a willingness to learn and to understand.

I am in love with Freddie and Cook from Skins. No, like, really.

Rihanna is too buff.

I pretty much live in my Uggs and I need to get over it now it's getting warmer.

I like the Kardashians and I enjoy watching The Hills which irritates my mum a lot.

I love that I was born in New York and I think dual nationality is the sex.

Trust and Loyalty is a HUGE deal to me - and I hate feeling I don't have that in somebody I love - it makes me really uncomfortable - because that's something I can promise my friends.

I hate girls that are all about men... and who will change around them and who need a boyfriend and who will dump friends repeatedly. I wouldn't want to be with someone who didn't understand that my friends were important. I also hope that he would love my friends in time also.

I have a love/hate with these reality talent shows ..... I wish they weren't so fickle and formulaic but at the same times beggars can't be choosers and I think you have to try every avenue nowadays. 

I tried to hate JLS for a really long time but I just don't. They're not the best singers but they're polished performers and their songs are catchy.

I feel like i'm on a good path.................................... I'm not there yet... but i'm on my way... and i'm doing it on my own terms, and that feels kinda good... on that note, I love people who get off their arse and DO IT - we can all procrastinate but how shit is it to look back at all that time you wasted? We don't have forever... so let's make the most of now.

That's it for now... give me a day... it'll probably all be different.

Tori x